:: Electric Psychedelic Pussycat Swinger's Club ::

:: Saturday, January 21, 2006 ::

"My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis. My punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing."

- Patrick Bateman, American Psycho

If you only knew the half of it, Patrick. But unlike you, I fear that perhaps I have gained some deeper knowledge of myself. And what I've learned is that I was meant to suffer. Unrequited love seems to be a reoccurring theme throughout every period of my life. And abandonment is like a like a warm and familiar friend.

I am alone, again.

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